It Happened and Now I'm Here

I read it for the first time last Friday. I might have learned more from my family's past here than through stories told after Christmas dinners. There were grammatical errors, which I didn't expect. Typos riddled each page like a third rough draft (you might've thought they've all gone—)

Amazon does not have a picture. The customer reviews are positive, 2 five star ratings and reviews written in the late 90's and early millennia. Only a blockbuster film could stir any interest in purchasing such a book; people don't think about one of the worst sea disasters everyday.

Although, Pirate Radio stirred a sickness and fear in my stomach during the scene where the cold sea rushes into the rooms of the ship— that scene was entirely too long.

And when I hear Celine Dion, any song, really.

There is a blanket of sadness that lays over me when I think of her. The questions she could never resolve, not matter how many times that night replayed in her mind. Did she ever know where Pekka went?

Having raised my grandfather, something from that traumatic night may have passed onto him, ran through his blood and now rushes through mine.

Several years ago, I decided to look for Pekka. My would be great grandfather, I suppose. Through Finnish specific encyclopedias, interviews, short stories— many have incorrect information. Where do they get this crap? "I'll go out and see, what's going on." Never left Pekka's lips.

Some references have the wrong names completely. Erin and Pekko?

An interview was finally recovered from a man that claimed to have been running around in the chaos with Pekka that night; even the last seconds of life Pekka had in the freezing Atlantic.

So, did Elin ever find out what happened to her husband on the night she became a widow?

Having died on the day my uncle was born, sitting in a chair with A Night to Remember laid on her lap, I'd say the Titantic had actually taken her life too, so many years ago.

http://www.amazon.com/Going-See-What-Has-Happened/dp/0965717402